The fallacy within me

I know that God is good and He wants good things for His children. I also know that the things I think are good in my human mind are not really good in comparison to what God sees as good. Luckily He blesses us with what is truly the best for us, aka His standard of good (if we're willing to submit).
I know that I'm single because God sees that as fitting for me right now. It's too bad my head can't translate that to my heart. The phrase "two appetites in me, which one do I feed" comes into my mind right now. (That could very well be from the bible or it could be a paraphrase of what Paul has written.) The one says be practical and wait on the Lord while the other says I'm lonely and I want love right now. I've always thought that God had someone amazing picked out for me, (although some interests contradicted that belief, some did not) now I wonder if I've been self-deceived.
What seems to be the hardest thing right now is having this desire, praying for this desire to come to pass, and then watching it happen for so many others constantly. Time is slipping through my fingers I feel, and I think the gap is closing in year by year on my options. Yet I desperately don't want to settle, and I don't think I will. The other thing that I find hard is watching others do the very things they shouldn't to be in a relationship and I feel like I suffer for putting God first (trying to operate in a way that's pleasing to Him). I'm not about to date anyone unless they're saved, (share my faith and belief in Christ Jesus) I wouldn't even go out once with someone unless I knew that for a fact. God says not to be unequally yoked and you cannot take fire to your bosom without getting burned. To me if I did this I feel like I would be telling God that my desires are more important than my relationship with Him and they're not.
I guess maybe I feel like "hey God I'm playing the game by Your rules can you help me out here?" I know I shouldn't envy others, especially those that don't honor God in their conduct, but at times it's extremely hard not to wonder "what if" and do whatever it takes to gain my own happiness. I also know that's not how God's economy of grace works. (Although I could really understand the mentality of the harvesters who worked all day and got paid the same as the harvesters who only worked an hour.) God doesn't repay us for our works, but He is a GOOD father who gives what His child needs and I've got to hold on to that. I've got to hold on to the numerous promises that if you diligently seek God and wait on Him He will bless you for it. It wouldn't make me stronger or teach me anything if it wasn't difficult.

Foundations (part 2)

The Gospel


There is a creator, He is God = the one and only.

It is God's desire to have a relationship with man, He created us to know Him.

After the fall (Adam and Eve) man is naturally born into sin, that sin separates us form God who is perfect. Sin and God's perfection are like oil and water, it's against their natures to mix.

God made a way for He and man to be reconciled. He sent His son, Jesus Christ, to be born in human flesh to a virgin.

Jesus Christ is fully God and was fully human. He was tempted in all points as is normal for all humans, and yet remained sinless. He was the perfect son of God.

The wages of sin is death, eternal separation from God. Without the shedding of blood there is no remission (removal or forgiveness) of sin. Which was originally exemplified by the sacrificial law of the Hebrews. Sin requires a payment. Jesus Christ, perfectly innocent, died a criminals death on a roman cross to pay man's penalty.

After 3 days in the tomb Jesus rose from the dead. He walked on earth for about 40 days (seen by many eye-witnesses) prior to ascending to heaven to be at the right hand of God, where He remains and has remained until He comes to take His church home.

Anyone who believes that Jesus in the Son of God, that God raised Him from the dead, and confesses Jesus Christ as LORD will be saved from the punishment of sin and eternal death.


All of the above is the GOSPEL (the Good News): God loves man, wants to be with man, but cannot due to sin. So in His love He gave His Son to take man's place and pay the payment required of sin, because Christ's sacrifice was perfect God raised Him from the dead and if we believe in Him we will share in His resurrection from the dead. This is plain and simply the Gospel, you add anything to it (like good works to save you) it's not the gospel. If you take anything away from it (like denying the deity of Jesus Christ) it's not the gospel. This Gospel as God, as Christ, and as many devoted followers before me have said is the ONLY way to God! "For there is one God and one Mediator between God and men, the Man Christ Jesus," - 1 Timothy 2:5. Jesus Himself also said "I am the Way" (singular) - John 14:6.